I’ve been addicted since I was eighteen
that’s when I fell in love with nicotine
Not like meth, but it can rot your teeth
Worse method of coping, but I also love weed
my dependency, hits different
like Gemini, double sides
the cherry on top of my high
shitfaced, I’m scatterbrained
I want to be hammered
then I want nicotine
and I’m flooded by dopamine
Dull because I’ll never feel
the same again without it
and that’s why I hate myself
That’s why I advocate to my crowdless audience
You’ll have to experience it, I’ve accepted it
I just wish someone would read my shit
I’m not alone, but I am bored
because without them
I don’t want to be there
I’m not even here
I don’t know where the fuck I am
or what the fuck I’m doing
I’m literally just existing
Cut me some slack
I know I’ve treated you like chopped liver
but I just wanted to be alone
at least until I recover
So don’t call me down to dinner
because I’m not hungry
the nicotine curbed my appetite
and when I’m high I’ll come out like the mice
These drugs have made me different
I wish I could turn back time
Fuck alcohol, fuck weed, fuck nicotine
Sometimes I wish I was just a teen
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