I wanted to love, not hurt you
Why didn’t you just say what you
wanted from me, fuck you
I’ve been to hell and that’s where
this love was sent too
Should’ve ended it all before you handed me that card
I would have left if I knew love was this hard
It wasn’t meant to
if we were supposed to be
would you have lied about the
feelings you tried to hide
and still shame me for being inside
Now look through the window
all I wanted was to teach you how to grow
I was careful, you were little
I swear to god you never thought of me
now that’s forgetful
The alternation of regret and respect
except trusting your spiteful heart
and mine you’d neglect
I had already talked myself out of my head
by the time I saw who you really were
Mistakenly satisfied
silenced my intuition because fuck me for being inside
You say I’m bitter, because I became resentful
Who isn’t when heartbreak turns into a spiral
I will never feel guilty for being observational
You were insecure of the power I held
because you knew
I could make things have meaning
or mean nothing at all
My rise was this downfall
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